I know I have only been posting our fun outings while here at MTI, but most of the class time has been so intense and thought provoking that unless you are interested, I didn't want to wear you down with missionary training. Of the 2 1/2 weeks we have been here, I have had second thoughts about our calling at least 2-3 times a week. Not so much, is God calling me, but can He really do something good through ME! I fear doing more harm than good in light of cultural changes. The only thing worse than not going is going and turning them off to Christ by my actions.
I have learned so much, not just about the culture I am going to, but about myself: Who I am, What my values are, What my tendencies are when I am up against a wall and how that will impact my ministry in Ecuador.
Some of the things I have liked learning and other have been just down right ugly things that have been hard to swallow. But at the end of the day, God knew exactly who I was and what I was coming into this and chose me anyway. I know that who I am and what I am is not what He will be using, but who I am in Him and through Him is exactly what He will use for His good.
I think you are going to be such a blessing to the people in ecuador...Now that I have gotten to know you I soooo wish I was called to ecuador as well! Thanks for being such a blessing to me...even on those hard days at MTI :)
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